MISS FUNSHINE (:

2005-09-29T15:55:00.000+08:00

PLEASE KINDLY RELINK AT HTTP://ALLTHATJUNK.
BLOGSPOT.COM! THANKS! <33333>

2005-09-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

Went to town with Mummy, Mich and Mal yesterday! Got the book I wanted, Ain't She Sweet! (: Oh I love it! My gosh Borders is so uber big I tell you I can stay there for my entire life and read all the books! :D After that we dinned at this Korean BBQ restaurant. Spent nearly hundred bucks. Headed home. On the car we were talking about eerie stuff, Bishan Street 22 was once a cementry. Mummy and Daddy told us. Mich was screaming her head off as usual. Hahaha! (:

Today went to compass with Mal and Mich. Got accessories and lots of stuff. Talked and embarrassed ourselves totally. Screaming, talking loudly and blah blah. Did retarded stuff, the one I remembered most is the marsmellow. Stupid sound effects. HAHAHA! :D Bought food back for Daddy, Mummy and Grandma. (: Thats about all. Tmr PPP is history and something else. Bye all! Loves!

Zhaolin: Hello dearestest! Hahaha! You werent sleeping? Okayeee then. I miss you too. Will do some catching up. And we better go for tuition soon! Hahaha! Lovee! (:
Samantha:Hello! You cant wait huh!? Alright. Somemore what to lock me outside your house right. Mean pok pok pok! (: See you soon! Misses! :X
Amerie: Hellooo you! Im okayee? Yeah. Are you okayee too? Should be la. (:

2005-09-24T12:17:00.000+08:00

I've a lot to update on. Had Science practical in the morning. Practical partner Teresa! (: Mandy was on my right. (: I started with Chemistry practical first. Had frequent chats with Mandy even though we werent allowed. Physics practical was the dumbest ever, the ruler and nail. Managed to finish Physics but not Chemistry sadly.

After practical had to be quarantined from 9.30-12.30. Did a NE quiz was quite fun hahaha! Went to the library, zhaolin and brenda just fell asleep luh. Was reading Twisted Summer by Willo Davis Robert. Kinda interesting. (: Then Le and the rest from the second shift were released from their practical. Talked and Beatrice was telling us about her maid she had when she was in primary school. HAHAHA totally entertained! (: (:

We were dismissed. Le, Beatrice, Regina, Serene, Liting and I headed to punggol plaza for lunch. Embarrassed by Serene, Beatrice and I were cheated. Had lunch and saw our beloved Mrs Ku! I think I was like a frantic manic waving at her. :D Anw saw this weird school girls and two potential bungs who looked really cute, esp the one from PAP(haha), a cute little boy who was mixed-blood. He had black eyes and hazel-coloured hair. ADORABLE! (:

Went to Le's house, Liting went home first. We lazed around doing nothing practically. Read magazines and books. Tried glittery sprays that smelt like cough syrup and ice-cream. Watched Shutters, the horror movie. Beatrice's eyes switched between the archie comic and the television. HAHA! She leaned over when she was scared. Hahaha! Not very scary movie but was alright. (That reminded me, Clarissa said she was covering her eyes while watching Harry Potter which was totally not a horror show :D). After the show went home. Saw MuiKoon on the way, she couldnt recognise me at first. (:

Reached home, did my stuff and fall asleep at 9 plus. Probably heading to town library with Mich then walking around. Back to my book for now. (: I think someone hacked into my account. Anw <33s!

Bouncy: I love you too!
Loraine: Hello Loraine! (:
Ctee: SugarPie! Your hair still looked the same although maybe your fringe was a little shorter. Haha anw 4D was having prelim and they were having break before their next paper, sorry for taking up the seats. Apologise to your class on my behalf. Lovee! (:
Amerie: Hello! (:

2005-09-21T19:22:00.000+08:00

The lizard disappeared, I decided to let it go.
Today was Amath paper two.
The paper was difficult, as usual.
Came home, mugged for Hist which is tomorrow.
Now Im all tired. (: (:

Munched chocolate bars for the past half an hour. Talked to toufu for almost an hour, which I think was certainly worth the while cause I got to know some inside information which was what I needed to know. I think I've been missing out on lots of stuff cause of the prelim and yada yada studies. I also found out that I'm rather/simply oblivious or maybe unobservant to certain things happening in school, actually kept in the dark, oh bother. Thanks to my updater, toufu ms. (: So well whatever. It's not a bad thing to know later those things than everyone else.

One whole chunk of crap I just typed. Dont know what is going through my brain.
Anw thanks to those who wrote exam wishes at the canteen I really appreciate all of your wishes. (: May you all do well at your final year exam too! <33s

Wanted to type more but I shall reserve the rest to after the prelim. With a clearer mind I'll be able to say what I really have in mind and blah blah.

I ~~HATE HATE HATE!~~
I hate to be kept in suspense.
If you have something to say just shoot,
dont try to pretend. :X

2005-09-18T20:51:00.000+08:00

mat has not updated for three days already.
and i realised something.
i dont know what to update about.
so..anyway..
today is CLOWN DAY.
happy clown day darling! (:
tmr is her amaths paper.
have to report at 1.45pm?
she's just told me she's gonna sleep early today.
i hope she's feeling fine.
anyway,i shall stop here.
I LOVE YOU MAT!! (=

-amerie

2005-09-15T15:08:00.000+08:00

NEW SKIN'S UP!

Taadaa! Nothing so Great about this skin.
Merely wanted to revamp my blog a little. (:
I think I should reduce the number of times I come online, since the O's are ~~ONLY less than 2months away~~ (courtesy of cheryl yang, she informed me)
Tomorrow is Emath Paper Two!
My hope for getting a B grade or higher for Math!
Half way through revision, memorising formulas all done already.
Im only left with practicing. Hur. (:
Mug hard all sec fours!
God Bless!
<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GF! (:
I LOVELOVELOVE YOU!

2005-09-14T19:36:00.000+08:00

TODAY'S PAPER

ENGLISH PP 1; SO-SO LOR. I SPENT A GOOD 15MINUTES THINKING OF THE FORMAT FOR LETTER. COMPO WAS SADDENING, IT'LL MAKE A GOOD CHINESE DRAMA I GUESS. : D

ENGLISH PP2; ATROCIOUSLY DONE. IT WAS ABOUT SOME EXPLORATION AND CHINA'S GREAT WALL. I WAS STONNING AND THINKING OF WHAT TO UPDATE HERE. (HAHA)

PHYSICS; HAHA? CC KEPT WALKING UP AND DOWN OUR CLASS, STOP RANDOMLY TO LOOK AT THE RUBBISH WE PRODUCE. ~~I'M SORRY BUT I THINK I'LL DO THE PAPER BETTER WITHOUT YOU WALKING ARND.~~

* SLAMS MOUSE AGAINST TABLE. $*@!^#%! : D

YET ANOTHER DAY PASSED, COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS.

2005-09-12T17:06:00.000+08:00

1 down, 10 more papers to go. Tommorrow is Chemistry. (:

Social Studies was alright I guess, hope the mugging was worthwhile. Oh yes, Bouncy I know you read my blog hur. Calling someone by a name doesn't necessarily mean anything more. (:

I feel so lousy all of a sudden. I am in a foul mood. I'm in such a terrible state. ~~Fuck~~. I rather you leave the house, stop bringing anymore trouble to the family. Don't think you're the greatest just because you bring money home. We give in to you because we have the least respect for you, so don't try to take advantage. You can choose to continue with your childish and insensible behaviour but that won't break the family apart.

<33s

2005-09-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

Tell me, if Prelims can kill, what can O Levels do to a teenager who barely lived for 16 years? It's enough to throw you down a building more than a thousand times, I can't think of anything worst.

Finally started. I studied Venice today. I studied very hard, I think. Make me pass oh make me pass please (: I must be out of my mind. Hur. Maybe I should go back and study more. (:

Smiles awake you when you rise;
Sleep pretty darlings, do not cry,
And I will sing you a lullaby. (:

2005-09-09T12:16:00.000+08:00

Every time I sneeze, my head will start to ache. When I want to eat, I feel like vomitting. I think I'm sick, Offically. Nothing to rejoice about, Prelims next week.

Can anyone tell me that she hasn't studied Socials Studies? I need to start studying SS.
Farewell.

I'm addicted to Kelly Clarkson- Because of You.

2005-09-07T11:31:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was simply splendid. (: Honey came over in the morning to get some stuff. And we were studying please. (: Shocking right?! LOL. It was the F Day. Hahaha. I love! (: Then honey went back after a while.

After which had lunch with family. Photos uploaded below. (:

Step One, Spread the sauce evenly

The cook for the day*drum rolls

Michelle! (:

Final TouchUp, Look at the drop of sauce :DD

After lunch went down and studied by the pool. Study session was quite a sucess, I managed to finish my Chemistry Ten Year Series. (: Praise the Lord! We were bored after mugging. So there's it!

The rest of the photos are still in the processing. Will put up soon. (:

Past eleven was talking on the phone with honey till two plus. Hahaha. At first was kind of down. But this person had to make me laugh and after not long I was functioning as per-normal. I was traumatised by the doll please. It's just gruesome. Horrifying!

Anyway I have to thank honey for that talking, really appreciate it. (: I might not have been the best person to talk to, I might throw my temper at you. Or even make sarcastic remarks, but I never meant all of that. I hope everything will remain as it is. I'll be glad to hear from you that you're been studying and still do so. (:

Alright. I think I should stop here. Time for mugging again. Mug hard for Prelim Two. Love all! (:

2005-09-04T15:13:00.000+08:00

THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE AGAIN.

SUCH A DRAG. :/

And I have a lot of homework piling up, higher than mount everest i think. :D I only have to go back to school on Thursday. Which means the rest of the week, I'll be at home, trying to study for Prelim Two.

Replies:

Maybelle - Hello prettaye! :D I'll mug hard! You must mug too! (: (: (:

Amerie- My sister burst the balloon! Give me another balloon please. I want a yellow balloon! But it'll never be the same again. I miss you! Lol.

Gen- I love you my mini sister too! HEARTS! <3

Samantha- Hello Bimbo! How can you say that it's not nice. You drew it yourself lor! Haha!

Jesmine- Hello Jesmine! (: My junior drew it. Lol. I MISS YOU A LOT TOO! (: I miss camp, the preparation, in short everything! I'll study hard, even though it's tough. I will perservere too! Lovee (:

2005-09-01T19:50:00.000+08:00

DO YOU WANNA KNOW SOMETHING?

MY sister burst my yellow balloon. ): She was playing and it finally burst. I don't care. She better repay me alright. Please be grateful that I didn't run after both of you with a chopper.
Oh well I shall go for dinner now.

I HEART BIMBO LOADS!

2005-08-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

No more postings about daily stuff, cause it's all the same, daily routine. So I'll just come to this small place to write what I think of. I have very short memory, the minute I thought of what to write, the next I'll forget it all. Yes yes the SPASM are acting up again! (:

I forgot what to say now. And it's raining now. Suddenly it just rained. Oh well. Unpredictable. Time to study again. My plan for tomorrow is to visit grandma if I can, I wanna see her and talk to her. x) Or maybe I'll just go to Sentosa alone, to clear my thoughts, just for a day without having to stare at textbooks and the pile of tys waiting for me to lay my fingers on. Happy Teachers' Day in advance! GoodNight world.

If regrets were gold I'd be rich as a queen
If teardrops were diamonds how my face would gleam
If I'd loved you better I wouldn't be lonely

2005-08-26T17:52:00.000+08:00

JUST TELL ME THAT YOU UNDERSTAND AND FEEL THE SAME

I think today simply rocked! I finally get to see all the pretty faces in school today. Hahaha. I'm okaye, I'm alright already! (=

So there was history in the morning. After that social studies and english. The best part was during physics please. I love 4D la! We had a stupid pen fight. This is the last year in secondary school, so who bothers. =D Beatrice started it uh huh it's her again. So I drew on her jelly bits, Le join in too. Poor her. Hahaha. And Beatrice miraclously won. She drew you-know-what on my leg it's so disgusting. Hilarious.

Bye all.

2005-08-25T13:23:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO BE HEALTHY AGAIN.
I'm supposed to be at school now but I was sent home cause I was suffering from terrible menstrual cramps. If I'm not wrong, this should be the second time in fours years I was sent home.

Was outside the general office waiting for mummy to come. I kept falling into deep sleep, then they thought I fainted. So they had to keep me awake. They had to carry me to the car. I cannot imagine please. I was half-conscious at that point of time, so I just felt like I'm floating. :D Now I feel so gulity, I think I'm damn heavy. Apologies to all, and also thank you.

I missed school.
I'll miss a test which is after school.
I'll most probably miss filming.

Thank you all who helped me. I can't wait to go back tomorrow! (=

2005-08-22T21:27:00.000+08:00

Damn irritating please! I'm gonna start blabbering nonsense but who cares this is my blog. I'm not in the right mind to study so I shan't spend time stoning with the textbooks. I have to find a place to vent my anger, which is the reason; cause there is nowhere else I can find.

Had confrontation today it sucked but at least something is done to savage the situation. And then here I am thinking, I feel like a fool wasting my time and effort getting angry and agitated over ~~fucking~~ small matters. Its just a part of life, feeling used by someone. At least I know that I still have great friends around me so I won't go to the extend of having suicidal thoughts and getting all depressed. You know what? I'm gonna ~~fucking~~ hell survive this cause you're just a midget and I won't waste my life weeping and moaning because of you. So get this into your skull.

Haha AhLe just called and as usual we laughed like our business! I gonna sleep real early and by tomorrow morning I am the BRAIN-WASHED Mathilda! (:

Farewell all! <333

2005-08-21T17:32:00.000+08:00

I HOPE EVERYTHING IS GOING RIGHT.
TELL ME IT IS.

Yet another week has passed. Prelim Two is coming in two weeks time. The only chance to prove to myself that I'm capable of passing well. So I was reading the dictionary just now. And I found interesting words like
Muck- Anything disgusting/ dirt, filth, manure.
Malevolent - Wish evil to others.
La-di-da - Pretentious or affected, in manner of speech.

I love my sisters they are loppy!
MAT LOVES ALL!

2005-08-17T21:28:00.001+08:00

Apparently I came online just to do Mr Teoh's Chemistry Quiz, but nothing could be done. Don't ask why. It's just so disappointing. If I went yesterday, I would have done a few quiz. I guess I really took him for granted. Sorry.

I shall go think of what to email Mr Teoh to make him reopen his website. Today had a long talk by Mrs Chan and Mrs Das. We fared badly for prelim one. I mean VERY BAD, it's horrendous. I must really study hard this time. Parent Teachers' Meeting is this friday, I'm really screwed up this time round.

Oh and another thing, I won't bother replying massages and answering phone calls from now on because I HAVE DECIDED NOT TO WASTE MY PRECIOUS TIME ( 3 more months!!) TALKING AND MESSAGING.

I AM DETERMINED TO PUSH EVERYTHING ASIDE FOR THE MOMENT AND FOCUS ON MY STUDIES CAUSE I KNOW THAT IT TAKES EFFORT AND HARDWORK TO GET A GOOD OUTCOME.

Farewell ! :D

2005-08-17T18:48:00.000+08:00

HELLO! I AM ON THE PHONE WITH YOU NOW!
AND WE'RE DISCUSSING STUFF. haha!
SO FUNNY! DON SHOUT ON THE PHONE! CRAZY ~~THING~~! whoops...I MEAN GIRL. OKAY.
I LEFT YOU ON THE SECOND LINE...WAIT KAY. I'M GETTING BORING HERE!
WAHAHA.
SO I WANNA HEAR YOUR CONTINUATION OF YOUR STORY NOW..
FWALALALA.
YOU HUNG THE PHONE OR DID I?
"things may not seem what they are. god probably is making the best out of things already. things could have been worse."
SECOND LINE AGAIN!
WTH LA DEY!
CHICKEN(amerie) NUGGET(nic) MUSHROOM(pea) MUTTON(sam) SOUP(mat).
HAHA.
stop aying leh!
i should learn how to laugh properly says the smart one!
don think bout it!
i'm not an ASSHOLE.
that reminds me of the LIST.
haha.
paint nails paint nails.
((:
fwalalala.
kay.
BYE!

love, AMERIE! :D

2005-08-16T20:08:00.000+08:00

Firstly let me say this, it's freedom of speech. I have every right to say what I want to say so please do not get friggin' angry with me if any of the content in this entry offends you, or if it really bothers you a lot to know if I'm talking about you, then JUST ASK ME.

They're just a bunch of ignorant teenagers from SJC 2BANANA (I don't wish to mention the specific CLASS and NAMES because I STILL HAVE A SENSE OF RIGHTEOUSNESS) .

You will never ever imagine yourself having such friends. Are they even fit to be called 'friends'? As a senior, I feel utterly sad for the school, to have such students, and for teachers as well.

This entry is SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO YOU PEOPLE, PLEASE WAKE UP! DON'T THINK YOU'RE THE GREATEST THING ON EARTH. IF YOU THINK YOU'RE MIXING WITH THE CORRECT COMPANY, THEN IT'LL BE THE END OF YAL! IF YAL STILL HAVE A LITTLE CONSCIENCE , THEN JUST DO WHAT YOU THINK IS GOOD FOR YOURSELF, AND ALSO FOR THE SAKE OF THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU.

The moral of the story is to OPEN YOUR EYES WIDE AND CHOOSE YOUR FRIENDS WISELY. You'll never know THE CLOSEST FRIEND of yours might just gang up with others to turn against you.

But it's not the end of the world cause GOD is always with us! (= ANYWAY I HAVE MORE TO WRITE ABOUT. I'LL COME BACK IN SOON.

Love keeps on trusting God even when the right choices

you make don't turn out the way you want.

2005-08-14T15:40:00.000+08:00

I'm so tired from studying, so I've decided to blog!
It must be the Charlie and the Chocolate Factory fever la, Mr Willy Wonka got so famous. Mich cannot seem to find any Gobstoppers from anywhere. She went to Toa Payoh, Rivervale Plaza and blah blah. But she cannot find them. Can Mr Willy Wonka manufacture more Gobstoppers please? I have to buy it for someone! Or else she will whine and complain for them. Hah. Anyway Gobstoppers are not EVERLASTING, as what is printed on the box. Bye! (=

2005-08-13T19:00:00.000+08:00

Haven't blog for a while. I shall start from yesterday.

FRIDAY:
We got back our O Level Chinese result. I didn't fare well as predicted. I didn't study, so what high expectations can I have? And sweetie got his results back earlier than me, he called and we talked for a while, while Mrs Chan was saying the dismissal prayer. Haha! Anyway it was a shitty day don't talk about it, except for that phonecall. (=

TODAY:
Tried to study and practise Emath. I want to score A1 for Emath! I will study hard. Last night I kept thinking. Why did things end up this way? I just don't understand, why can you take it so lightly. You sounded like everything is okaye and blah blah. Maybe I'm too sensitive, I'm meant to suffer with it forever. I don't know. For now, I just hope that I can cope with my studies. And maybe when I have the time, I'll think about it.

I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
I'd do anything, just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Somehow I can't put you in the past
I'm taking my time
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm ~~gonna~~ be fine
As soon as I get your picture out of my mind
I wanna feel the way you make me feel
When I'm with you I wanna be the only hand you need to hold onto

2005-08-09T17:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
I LOVE SINGAPORE, IT IS MY HOMELAND! =D

Public holiday today. All I'm doing is stone and slack. Who cares!? Haha anyway we're having study group tomorrow. =D I miss school hell loads. Tell me what to do when we're leaving the school this year?

I have so many problems, God tell me what to do please? I'm always lost. So what if I try to be a kind soul? You might think that I'm toying with your feelings, but I'm not. All I want to do is to help you. But things have to turn out this way. I'm not putting the blame on anyone. Honestly, I'm finding it harder to trust anyone. How sad. But whatever it is, I got Him to help me.

I will not lose HOPE.
(=

2005-08-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

HELLO! (:
IT WAS FUN TODAY!
THE MAD GAME.
HAHA! ((:
LOVEE!! :D :D :D

<3, AMERIE!

2005-08-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

I REALISED THAT I COULDN'T TAKE IT ANY LONGER AND DECIDED BLOG ABOUT IT. TODAY IS JUST ANOTHER NICE DAY. BUT ALL THIS SPOILT MY ~~FUCKING~~ MOOD! SO I'M GOING TO START NOW. :/

WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE PLEASE? CAN YOU JUST STOP POSING OTHERS. YOU ARE THIS ONE PERSON WITHOUT YOUR OWN THINKING AND PERSONALITY. YOU JUST FOLLOW WHATEVER OTHERS DO. IS THIS FUN?! I GET FRIGGING IRRITATED AND SICK. THIS IS ONE THING. DO YOU ENJOY LYING? I KNOW THAT YOU DO, BUT YOU ALWAYS ACT AS THOUGH YOU DIDN'T.

dinner now. i shall continue later.

BACK. I THINK I'M NOT SO ANGRY NOW. I SERIOUSLY THINK THAT YOU ARE OUT TO MAKE PEOPLE'S LIFE MISERABLE. MANY PEOPLE ARE AFRAID OF YOU. DO YOU KNOW THAT? I THINK YOU SHOULD KNOW. (EVEN THOUGH YOU PRETEND LIKE YOU DONT' KNOW) EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE ALWAYS SO NICE TO THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU, GET THEM STUFF (YOU KNOW WHAT). THE WORST THING IS YOU LOVE TO STICK TO PEOPLE, AND HUG THEIR ARM, PINCH THEIR CHEEKS, TICKLE THEM. DON'T YOU KNOW THAT PEOPLE FIND IT UBER IRRITATING AND WERE ALL DISGUSTED BY YOUR STICKINESS ~~(FUCKING LEECH)~~. YOU'RE JUST CAPABLE OF DOING ANYTHING. I AM JUST GETTING A LITTLE ANNOYED BY YOU. SO IF YOU READ THIS AND THINK IT'S YOU. YES IT'S YOU! SO KINDLY PLEASE STOP ALL YOUR NONSENSICAL ACTIONS AND WAKE UP! STOP ACTING LIKE YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON AND JUST FACE THE FACT. IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WE WILL HELP YOU. ONLY IF YOU SAY. CAUSE IF YOU DON'T HELP YOURSELF, HOW CAN WE HELP YOU?

AH I FEEL BETTER. I HOPE THAT YOU WILL READ THIS. AND REALISE WHAT YOU'RE DOING IN LIFE. THANK YOU!
GOD BLESS YOU.
ACTUALLY I STILL HAVE MORE TO ADD. BUT I'M TIRED.
BYE.

2005-08-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

Eating my favourite Meiji strawberry flavoured chocolate now. :D Yumyum! I'm getting fat again tell me when will I ever lose that 5kg?! Must be the examination stress. :/

Tmr is the last and final paper for prelim one. Physics and Chemistry MCQ. I've been online since twelve plus and i haven't started studying. Staring at the pile of Physics and Chemistry notes right now feeling so sorry. Slacking me. I need someone to force and pressure me in order to study!

Alrights I better run now!
<3

2005-08-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

LALALA!
I'm happy today.
Sweet cousin of mine called just now. :) We haven't talked on the phone for ages. And I meant ages, like almost two years. I certainly prefer calling her cousin. She's a really nice girl, with lovable personality and a great sense of humour.

I miss the times we had in secondary one. Remember the three of us, cousin and Meidan used to be the closest friends. I was the only student from KCPPS then, so they were the friends I had. We talk about anything and everything, bicker and even end up quarreling. They're the ones that really brought joy into my life.

Vitamin C-Graduation is playing. Memories of secondary school life flash in my mind like a short clip. I will really miss SJC, and the people that played a role in my life.

Side tracked. Today had Amath paper one. Don't talk about it. Hah. After paper came back home and fell asleep cause I was just too tired. Then darl woke me up with a call. They came over and STUDIED.

Just hung up the phone with bimbo. Hurr. Thanks sweetie for the encouragement! And not forgetting my beloved son for leaving a uber sweet note on my table. Anyway ALL THE BEST FOR CTs JUNIORS!
DINNER is WAITING FOR ME!
Lovee :)

2005-07-31T18:59:00.000+08:00

It's like Amath paper one tomorrow. I'm feeling so exhausted after studying and attempting to complete that horrible Bukit Timah paper without a freaking hell answer sheet. I finished it and I don't know what to do now. Maybe studying is a good option! Oh yes nods (: HAHAHA tomorrow will be another doom day for me.

I just felt like blogging for ONCE. So I'm off now. Still four more papers to go!
MUG HARD!! :D

I've got to see you
Wherever you are
And I've got to be there
I'm wishing on stars
I've got to reveal what's inside of my heart
But the words escape me
And I'm paralyzed
So helpless when I
Look into your eyes

2005-07-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

I SCREWED Emath Paper II!
And when the teacher was collecting the papers, I calculated that and I LOST 23 out of that 100mark paper! And when i came home I was telling mummy that the paper was easy but I cannot do. Oh GOD! How am I supposed to get an A1 for MATH and get into a JC for first three months?! OH MAT TRY HARDER NEXT TIME!

WE'RE HALF WAY THROUGH PRELIM ONE! HA HA PEOPLE MUG HARD PLEASE!
ENDURE AND IT'LL BE OVER IN ONE WEEK!
I SERIOUSLY CANNOT WAIT FOR PRELIM TO END LA.
THINGS I'LL DO AFTER PRELIM:

Go shopping with sister-in-law and all!
SENTOSA AGAIN. (THAT WILL BE MY USUAL HANGOUT AFTER O'S :D)
Spend quality time to SLEEP and get rid of those disgusting eyebag!

4 MORE PAPERS TO GO! :D

ADDITIONAL MATHS PAPER ONE
ADDITIONAL MATHS PAPER TWO
HISTORY
PHYICS/CHEMISTRY MCQ

Lovee all (:

2005-07-27T19:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAL!
I LOVE YOU SO!

Carrie Underwood - Inside Your Heaven

I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes

And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven

When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holding you until the day I die
And i wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way

I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

2005-07-25T13:31:00.000+08:00

First Day of Prelim.
Emath and Social Studies

Emath was alright,
except for that last question!
Socials studies was like so HUH lor.
I didnt even understand the sources.

And my nose was super irritating okaye!
I cant stop sniffing.
I knew something bad would happen today.

I shall PON tmr if im sick!
Off for lunch and mugging CHEMISTRY!

~~GET AWAY FROM ME.~~

2005-07-20T17:33:00.000+08:00

Today was GOOD!
Played Badminton during recess.
After school went for History remedial.
Miss Lim had to leave, so we were dismissed early! :D

Ask yourself this.
Do you really know me well?
I doubt so PLEASE.
You tried to say that i am not who i am in front of my friends?
So what if i am like that?
If you want you can call me a two-faced B*T*H or whatever.
If you want a friend, you jolly well accept her for who she is.

Ah crap!
Im MRS ***!
You're the one that kept me going (:

2005-07-17T21:35:00.000+08:00

Hello! (:
I haven't been posting recently.

Prelim One is in one week's time.
And im still like this, Oh GOODNESS!
Amath test and English Oral's on tomorrow.

Im hearing bad news from everyone.
To some people it might be good, but not for me.

Anw got to go study!
God Bless!
<3s

2005-07-15T18:08:00.000+08:00

your blog is rotting.
so I am here to help you UNROT(is there such a word?) it for you!
heh.
so here it is UNROTTED!
arent i lame.
but at least it's something.
and i'm gonna give you your VOLSWAGEN soon.
very soon.
I PROMISE.
heh.
kay.
gotta ciao!
LOVEEE!! (:

signing off,
---- :D

2005-07-10T19:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO!
WE'RE CRASHING YOUR WONDERFUL BLOG.
SOMETIME SOON,
YOU'LL BE RECEIVING YOUR VOLKSWAGEN.
AND YOU BETTER BE HAPPY BOUT IT AIIGHTS.
WE'RE SERIOUS!
HAHA.
AEH.
THAT SOUNDS FAMILIAR!
ANW,
LOVE LOADS DEAR!
((:

2005-07-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

MISSIONS MISSIONS I LOVE! (:
But it ended today!
I really enjoyed the bits and pieces of it.
It definitely benefitted me!
THANK YOU THOSE WHO CAME, GOD BLESS YALL!

Today's mission we talked about relationship with our family, parents and friends.
The part about family was alright, just enough for me to do a reflection.
Friendship!
Oh the MOST IMPORTANT PART.
I seriously need to clear my problems!
So they were talking about IJ schools.
The uniqueness we have, is THE FRIENDS WE MEET.
I totally agree!
Even though my friendship with people, ESP juniors arent that terrific.
So i was paying 101% to Isabel (She ROCKS totally! <3)
Then she was sharing with us her story in sec school.
I was doing a lot of reflection, in my heart.
Then as she was saying, i cant control any longer.
Hear many people sniffing, CRYING.

The fact is that,
friends close to me will know.
I have terrible mood swing, weird temper, super duper unpredictable mood,
so when i am in a bad mood, i'll snap at everyone who attempts to talk to me.
SO COINCIDENTALLY,
yesterday i sort of pissed this person, A.
And as Isabel was talking, i started crying my heart out.
Seriously i hated crying, and i cried last night cause of the same person.
So i was cooling myself down when her story got into the HIGH part,
there it goes, BLAH BLAH BLAH.
I FELT A SENSE OF GUILT INSIDE.
So we had to write notes to the person whom we wanna thank or say sorry to.
FIRST NAME IN MY MIND, A.
Wrote wrote wrote.
They played GREAT but SAD SONGS.
THE WORST, GRADUATION.
Can you imagine? Like whoa I HEAR SNIFFINGS AGAIN.
So i wrote my thoughts down, but i didnt really appologise to her.
In my mind all JUNIORS names appear, HOW WEIRD!
So my heart felt so much lighter after writing.

But still i guess i havent really had the chance to thank everyone, CLAR REMEMBER THE SCRIPTS ON PROM NIGHT (:
And alright
there's AMATH test tmr!
So im supposed to study now.
So BYE!

2005-07-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

School was great today, HAD MISSION.
And so the entire day we had no lessons, just sharing sessions and fun stuff.

Dont know why, but i just feel very comfortable in his presence.
I feel more like MYSELF, THE REAL SELF.
I tend to open up, not bottle my feelings and thoughts inside, cause i know that if continue to keep everything inside, i will feel even worse.

And so,
At this point of time i really want to thank those who REALLY, TRUEFULLY STOOD BY ME IN TIMES OF DIFFICULTIES.
<3

THIS IS THE THEME SONG OF MISSION;
BORN TO TRY by Delta Goodrem
Doing everything that I believe in
Going by the rules that I've been taught
More understanding of what's around me
And protected from the walls of love

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what you should have been
And regretting the things that went on
Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate
Remove the clouds look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

All that you see is me
All I truly believe
All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

2005-07-03T19:41:00.000+08:00

Talking to BIMBO now.
SHE PLAYS THE GUITAR,
BUT CANNOT REACH CHORD G.
LIKE HAHA!

Today studied like HELL! :/
Finished a little bit of everything.
Prelims in 23 DAYS! DANG!

Back to FRIDAY,
BE YOURSELF DAY! :D :D
I LOVE SIMPLY LOVE IT!
SORRY NATASHA THAT POSE WAS STUPID!
Took photos like haha the poses all damn hilarious!

DINNER'S READY!
<3all.

2005-07-01T22:07:00.000+08:00

Life has its ups and downs
Don't give up or feel bad when u couldn't make it,
try harder instead,
and maybe u might be able to do better.
Life is full of surprises, and u may never know what is going to happen next,
so be HAPPY and enjoy what's is given to you
for it is like a gift, but filled with many things.
Treasure all u got,
for it may only happen once.
Smile and enjoy
don't look on the bad side, but look at the bright side.

2005-06-24T15:52:00.000+08:00

Grooming course was alright,
guess the food at SWENSEN'S was too filling. :/

School's starting next week
Am not really prepared!!
I'm off to study!
<3

It seems like i've been waiting forever and a day
To have my time with you, with nothing in the way
And when i ask you, ~~baby~~, how long it's gonna take
i hear the ~~heartbreak~~ in your voice everytime you say
Maybe someday, maybe someday soon
Maybe one day, you'll know that ~~i love you~~
Maybe someday, maybe eventually
Maybe one day, dreams will come true.

2005-06-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

Talking to MR AYS NOW.
He certainly makes great sense aeh.
Someone tell me what is intentional red?
YES YES LIL BOY! =D

Look at the time now, its 10:22.
The thought of HISTORY LESSON tmr turns me off.
Standing in front of the class to present aint that bad,
But the duration is enough make me faint.
HOPE I DONT DREAM OF MAOZEDONG!
-STARES

REPLIES TO PAM:
Hey Pam!(= I didn't go for the service last sunday, was celebrating DADDY'S DAY! Linked you already, really hope to see you and the others real soon! <3

2005-06-19T12:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY!

I LOVE YOU DADDY!

GRANDMA'S back from HK!
I missed her so.

Anw back to yesterday.
Headed to TOWN and got my OFFICE WEAR!
Ate dinner at this place.
Two people were singing and PLAYING THE GUITAR!
-SCREAMS!
I LOVED THE PERFORMANCE!
OH! SIS WANTS TO GET ME AN ACOUSTIC GUITAR AS BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!
=D =D

Off to LUNCH AT SOME CHINESE RESTAURANT!
<3

2005-06-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

Had lessons today, nothing INTERESTING!
Almost slacked for the entire day.

I'm getting frigging worried cause i still have lots of hmwk to complete.
HORROR!
and MY KNEE is failing again.

Many problems coming in my way.
How can people grow up faster?
Am asking a DUMB QUESTION.

I simply love GEN MY SISTER LOADS :D :D
She's someone who i can confide in,
always understanding,
THANK GOD I GOT HER!

I gotta strive! <3

2005-06-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

Supposed to make a call right now,
but not exactly in the RIGHT MOOD.

Over dinner dad told me to concentrate on my STUDIES,
and not go out everyday.
Then mum said some THREATENING.
Mal had to say something too.
Made me kinda THINK over if im spending time the right way.

I SHOULD BE studying and am going to right now.
Probably make the call later or tmr.
SORRY DEAR!

Thank you for everything. (: in our lives, people come and go, but there's only that few who will leave footprints in our hearts unerasable. you are one of them. and i have no intention of ever erasing your footprints. you impacted my life. (:

2005-06-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

Super full from dinner!
Ate LIKE A LOT LA!
Nevermind shall diet to burn all the calories x)

Yesterday's TANNING DATE with the three babes was hell lot of FUN!
I'm gonna be a regular at SENTOSA!

Today's session at Church was AWESOME!
I LOVE Praise and Worship!

There's SCHOOL tmr.
How great yah?
I'm so IN LOVE in this book, HIT REPLY!
OFF TO READ!

:D

2005-06-10T16:55:00.000+08:00

ALOHA!!
Did something to the skin again,
cause i was bored from studying! (:

Went to school early morning for AMATHS!
Mr Tan ended his lesson on TIME finally!!
After lesson bus-ed home.

I'm feeling damn sick now.
I want to sleep!
Off to sleep!

ICANWALK;
ICANBALANCE ON LAND;
ICANBALANCE IN WATER;
ILOVEHARIBOS;
ILOVEYOUTOO!!

2005-06-09T20:12:00.000+08:00

CHEMISTRY ENDED AT ALMOST THREE!

Wasnt feeling too well all of a sudden,
Terrible headache.
Its like after someone banged yr head against the wall so hard,
and i see double vision.

Waited for them to break camp and went off to CP.
Was trying hard to sleep but i couldnt.

Am supposed to finish the chemistry quizes by TONIGHT!
Doing CHEMISTRY NOTES RIGHT NOW!
Headache GO AWAY!!!!

ILOVEDUGONG! (:

2005-06-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

HELLLOOO!!
I'm feeling rather happy recently, many reasons to it.

Awake at 6.30 this morning, LIKE WHOA SO EARLY!
Didnt want to get out of bed as usual, BUT for the sake of SOMEONE DESPERATELY IN NEED OF HARIBO and secondly, AMATHS; i finally woke up at 7!
Got to school and dear dear PEA gave me a hug, so did the one in need of haribos x)

Was struggling through the 2 hour lesson in AVA RM,
so tempted to sleep, but i didnt!
After the lesson, Mr Tan sang for us!
He's so sweet la!

People at camp;
HAVE LOTS OF FUN!!
MISS YOU ALL!!
(:

2005-06-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

Hillsongs United- What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm holding inside
With all hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt

With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldn't have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA

I wanna know
I wanna know you today

And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take you away

No-one could ever take you away

CURRENTLY STUCKED AT XINJIE'S BLOG LA!
LOVE THE SONG!!!!
HAHA WAS AT THE BLOG SINCE LIKE 2 HOURS AGO!
LOVED TODAY!
DEFINATELY A GREAT EXPERIENCE!
HOHOHOS IM GOING OFF!
<3333
TO THE PERVERTIC GUY WHO ATTEMPTED TO MOLEST,
MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

2005-06-03T13:27:00.000+08:00

I'm in HER room now!
So cooling okaye!!
And i'm just slacking arnd.

Going out on SUNDAY.
This is gonna be fun!

(:
I beg to dream and differ from the hollow lies,
This is the dawning of the rest of our lives,
This is our lives on holiday!

2005-06-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

I
SIMPLY
LOVE
THE
HARIBO
OUTING
AT SENTOSA!

2005-06-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

~~Oh Fuck man~~!

I rly dont knw how to explain how i feel now!
Its like you live in a family,
everyone should be treated equally.
But why is it that i always have to endure with extra scoldings and naggings,
asking me to do housework, prepare dinner,
and i always have to do what you all ask me to?
IS IT FAIR?
I dont think so.

Cant you simply ask your other two daughters to help you?
Why must it be always me?
WHY!?
And you always have to ask for help when i'm having my exams the next day.
THAT IS DAMN RIDICULOUS OKAY!
I SERIOUSLY HAD ENOUGH.
THEN WHEN I COMPLAIN OR MAKE NOISE,
YOU WILL START TELLING ME ALL SORTS OF RUBBISH,
SAYING THAT I'M MOST HELPFUL AMONG MY SISTERS,
AND I AM WILLING TO HELP.
Oh hell what crap la,
i mean you will surely say that,
CAUSE YOU WOULDNT WANT TO LOSE A HELPER WHO IS WILLING TO TAKE ALL YOUR SCOLDINGS AND REPRIMANDS WITHOUT COMPLAINING,
AND OBEDIENTLY HELP YOU DO YOUR HOUSEWORK.

DONT YOU THINK YOU'RE TOO MUCH?
TILL YOU KNOW,
ONE DAY IM JUST GONNA RUN AWAY FROM HOME.

This sounds so threatening but who cares!
And i knw that teachers will read all this.
SO THINK ABOUT IT OKAYE.
IS IT FAIR FOR ME?
AM I SUPPOSED TO JUST SPEND MY LIFE,
LISTEN TO WHAT MY PARENTS ASK ME TO DO.

I RLY DONT UNDERSTAND OK.

I NEED HELP.

2005-06-01T15:03:00.000+08:00

Oh no LALALA!!

I WENT TO SCHOOL FOR AMATHS LESSONS WITH MY GREEN NAILPOLISH!
AND AND..

There is less than FIFTEEN HOURS to STUDY FOR ADD.MATHS!!
FAINTS;
VOMITS;
YAWNS;

BYEEE!!

Love Mat (:

2005-05-31T19:36:00.000+08:00

I Am

I am
A transcendent light
Alive and fighting, in an unforgivable life
Graceful in execution
Undulating in thought
A tempstuous soul
Bravely riding the ins and outs
Ups and downs
Outsides and insides
Over and aboves
Of emotions, dreams and love
Darkness encircles, but
Intelligence bright
On a smiling face
Capricious in nature
Definitive in thought
Beautiful in love
You are
Ensconced in layers of
Salvation Army clothes
Protected against a caprocious, biting cold
An unforgiving memory
Worms its way, unwilling, into
The very seams of your coat
A single down feather escapes
From this tiny fissure
And drops, gently
Unaware of the tempest
That has released it
Beautiful, graceful
It floats to the ground, undulating, mesmerizing
No longer transcendent, no longer
Symbolic
You see it painfully, as your eyes squeeze
Shut
Against the bright glare of the sun

2005-05-30T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hohohos!
I changed that pic again.
Chinese O's finally over, rly can't wait to burn all those chinese books!!
Two major prelims coming next!

Anw what kind of holiday is this?
I see a list of holiday lessons prepared for us.
Hurhur x)
Faints.
Nevermind!
I see that its all for our own benefit, so i shall nt complain!

After don't knw how many weeks, i got my HAPPY BACK!!
Wheeeee!!
I can't be happier than ever.
I'm so looking forward to shopping, SENTOSA, and to xinjie's church!!
Praise the lord!
=D

2005-05-25T18:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO ((:
hello hello hello!
i love myself.
i love you too.
MANYMANY. ((:
BYEBYE!

'amerie

2005-05-25T00:11:00.000+08:00

Okaye, GUESS WHAT?!
TODAY IS THE LAST DAY OF THE CHINESE PROGRAMME!!
SAY BYE BYE TO CHINESE MOCK PAPERS AND HELLO TO THE BIG BIG CHINESE O'S IN 5 DAYS TIME!

How crappy can i get!?
Time really flies!
One moment you're a lil' kid in primary school,
the next you're on your way to collage!
Life ain't that bad yeah,
but there's just some things that can never be replayed.
They'll only remain as memories that will slowly fade away.

Had tuition as usual.
I must say that i'm beginning to enjoy spending time studying and getting the facts right.
LOL! x)
Sounds stupid but whatever la.

I'm feeling better than usual!=D
And that's a good sign!
HOHOHOS!
I shall go REPLY MINI SISTER'S LONG LETTER AND
GET INTO DREAMLAND.

BYE BYEE!

CHEER UP SWEETS!
DON'T BE TOO BOTHERED ABT THAT INCIDENT OKAYE?
YOU'RE MISSED AND LOVED!
((=

2005-05-21T17:18:00.000+08:00

Mariah Carey- We Belong Together

I didn't mean it
When I said I didn't love you so
I should have held on tight
I never should've let you go
I did nothing
I was stupid
I was foolish
I was lying to myself
I could not fathom that I would ever
Be without your love
Never imagined I'd be
Sitting here beside myself

Cuz' I didn't know you
Cuz' I didn't know me
But I thought I knew everything
I never felt..
The feeling that I'm feeling now
Now that I don't hear your voice
Or even touch or even kiss your lips
Cause I don't have a choice
What I wouldn't give
To have you lying by my side

We belong together
When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please come back
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
Baby nobody better
We belong together

I can't sleep at night
When you're all on my mind
Bobby Womack's on the radio
Singing to me
'If you think you're lonely now'
Wait a minute
This is too deep, too deep
I gotta change the station
So I turn the dial
Trying to catch a break
And then I hear Babyface

I only think of you
And it's breaking my heart
I'm trying to keep it together
But I'm falling apart
I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things
Crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong
The pain reflected in this song
Ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you
Need you back in my life baby

When you left
I lost a part of me
It's still so hard to believe
Come back baby please
We belong together

Who else am I gonna lean on
When times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me
Till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place
There ain't nobody else
We belong together

GOSSIPING SESSIONS

2005-05-16T20:02:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA.
I LOVE GOSSIPING SESSIONS.
SO FUN.
((:
YOU MIGHT NOT REALISE IT.UNTIL U READ THAT MAIL.
COOL COOL HUH?
OKAYE.IM JUST BEING BORED HERE.
GOTA GO NOW!

BYEEE!
LOVE YOU.
BOLSTERR*

2005-05-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

SIGH.
Apparently eating those gastric pills doesn't seem to help.
Anyway today slacked the entire day.
Slept till 12 plus.
HAHAHAHAH!

Tralalala!
I LOVE MY TWINS!
I LOVE MY SWEETIE!
I LOVE MY DARLING!
I LOVE MY SISTERS!
I LOVE MINI SKIRT!
I LOVE UNCLE!
I LOVE RUNING PARTNERS!
I LOVE NANNY!
I LOVE AH LE!
I LOVE SKITTLES!
I LOVE SUGAR PIE!
I LOVE BOLSTER!
I LOVE BROTHER AND SIS-IN-LAW!
I LOVE MY WEIRD FAMILY!
I LOVE MY DADDY AND MUMMY!
I LOVE THE ERMS!
I LOVE RUHUA!

<3

2005-05-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

~~FWALALA!~~

Today's such a long day.
Had three periods of amaths followed on by two periods of emaths.
Amaths was okaye, i understood his lessons!! =D
Emaths was like whoosh!!
She didn't even know her lessons were over!
She going too fast,
i wonder if anyone can catch up.

Recess suck i swear!
Wasn't hungry but had to eat something cause i didn't want my gastric to act up.
So i ate, and drank apple juice.
After that was walking back to class,
immediately ran to the toilet,
there's this something stuck in my throat.

Anyway had SS, Chinese and Physics.
Then came the Emaths paper, was 3plus when school ended.
Went to cp to eat with zhaolin and uncle.
TODAY seem like baby's day!!
We see babies all around the place.
UNCLE IS LAME!
Then after that went for tuition with zhaolin.
DISGUSTING lizards, flies, worm!

Just got home an hour ago.
Tired inside out please!!
I wanna sleep but got to study abt P&C!
This isn't the season to be jolly.
:'(

2005-05-11T19:30:00.000+08:00

Studied for 5 hours consecutively,
almost died okay!
Anyway just talked to sis about the direct admission exercise for JC.
Am thinking if i should try to appeal.
Aeh i'm getting friggin' worried for the BIG o's!!
Everyone is still in the slacking mood,
no sense of urgency at all!!

School was alright today.
The weather's getting cooling!!
YAYY!! :D

Chinese intensive programme is starting this friday,
surely won't have any good news.
Chinese prelims not that difficult,
anyway we're getting the results on friday.

Alright!!
Gonna go back to mugging again.
Physics and English compre,
here i come!

Hah retarded/weetarded! x)

2005-05-09T15:29:00.000+08:00

Just came home.
Lessons was alright today,
Had Emaths and Physics first thing in the morning.
Was perfectly fine la,
as usual: Laughed too much!
History lesson was fun!
Esp. the last few slides of the presentation.
Managed to get some sweets!
Ss as usual, did Venice in com lab :D :D
nothing much!

i realised that i'm starting to dread school.
The reason is obvious,
people around me should know better.
Anw its better you don't know.
I won't say much in here,
cause MANY people will read about it.
Just feel very offended.
~~I HATE YOU!~~

I need more time to study and
less time to think about useless stuff.

Hahas.
Anyway was shocked that my brother is GAY!
LOL!!
I'm off!
<3

2005-05-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

YIPPEEE! :D

Skips. Jumps. Grins. Laughs!!
Hahahahahas.
Soon you'll see me and Beatrice having all the SKITTLES in the world alright!!
Mwahaha!
I'm so so happy!!
This is gonna be so fun lol!

This is a little note for her.
My SKITTLE FRIEND;
I simply love you loads!
We'll go SKITTLE collecting arnd the world and,
rest assure we'll visit BUKIT TIMAH after the mid year exams!
Don't forget my SKITTLES on monday!

Alright i will go study or something now!
Take care everyone!
Mug hard for mid year exams!!

Skipps*

2005-04-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back!
after such a long long time.
and i see that people update for me.
haha. thanks sam and amerie.
(:

anyway many things have been happening in and out of school.
staying back almost everyday is NOTHING to me now.
and SYF is next thursday.

back to today.
oral today
went to macs for breakfast this morning before oral
with ms BOZY, ms GOH, ms KHOR, ms MOUSE.
yupp yupp.
had fun eating and laughing
was super full after all.
rushed back to school cause we're like LATE?!
oral was over in no time.

supposed to leave but returned to school
BORING!!
studied a bit, crap a bit
then went home.

wheeee!!!!!
feeling rather happy nw cause
i did some studying today
blogged
and
i'm happier now.

2005-04-16T11:07:00.000+08:00

COUPLES!
im heree.
hahs.m boredd.
just finished 2.4km run.
it sucks.
BADLY.
and im having tuition soon.
soon soon soon.
damn it.
im tired.
i haven't bathe.
i STINK!
hahs.
okayye.
bye for now couples.
mat's lazy.
brought a bunch of banana's to eat.
crazy goriLLa.
anyway.
i got to finish up my workk.
ohhs.
amerie's calling mee!
byeee.

samsam.
(: lovess-

2005-04-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

mathilda wont blog.
she says she's lazy to blog.
quoted from her "wth"
ahaha.
she's watching her AH BENG SHOW now.
wahahah..
my leg is numbing up now.
she's screaming loudly over the phone.
my ear pain.
wad's this?
ahahha..
madness..
"tooooooot..."
the phone hang alr.
oh man.
this is one LAME blog.
oh well..
I AM lame right? mathilda ho..?
anyway..
i know she had guitar after school today ..
ended den stayed in the canteen for a while.
den left for my hse with sam sng and pei ying.
oh mann.
hahah..
wad rubbish they did in the room while i was bathing
SOME weird photos taken too.
hahs.
and mat and her automatic changing of status on MSN.
hahaahs.
anywayy..
i'm gonna ciao now.

I LOVE DARLING LOADsss (:
amerie'

2005-04-12T16:45:00.000+08:00

samsam is going tuition now.
we want to make a blog combination.
from gorilla,goliRRA and goLLira.
BUT according to sam,
mat doesn't wanna be gorilla.
nvm den.
samsam will go home and blog for this girl later!
(:
love much-

2005-04-12T16:37:00.000+08:00

amerie is not a lame pok okaye!
okye okaye okaye!
dun be unfair.
unfair unfair unfair.
oh no.
no no no.
my nose is so blocked.
blocked blocked blocked.
it's samson samson samson.
hehe.
mat's mad?
mad? mad? mad?
okaye den.
den den den.
it's goliRRA's turn now.
now now now.
buh bye..

2005-04-12T16:35:00.000+08:00

amerie is lame pok.
lame lame lame.
my name is sam.
not sam sam sam
not samson or how ever u spelt it.
okaye.mat's going
mad mad mad.
its normal for herr.
now im going to MY blog to
blog blog blog.
it's amerie's turn now!
now now now.

byeeeeeee!

2005-04-12T16:31:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes.
we're flooding this blog.
flood flood flood.
oh oh oh.
i wonder wad mat will think.
think think think.
okaye okaye okaye.
now it's sam sam sam's turn.
i love myself too.
too too too.
heheh..
(:

2005-04-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

amerie is sick sick sick.
so am i i i.
hahs
okayys.
we're both like flooding her blogg.
its not ciao ciao.
its ciao ciao ciao!
i love myself.
opps.
i said something wrong.
thats goliRRa's poem!

(:

lalas!

2005-04-12T16:16:00.000+08:00

i'm helping this girl here blog.
blog blog blog.
i dint go school todaye.
sick sick sick.
argh.
i shall take care.
take care take care.
heheh..
this is like some poem or something.
i shall go mug now.
buh bye!
i love darling loads!!

((((:

2005-04-12T10:36:00.000+08:00

hahs.im here.
its mee!
bolster.
anyway.im sickk.
im at homee.
and mat's in school.
hahs.mat turned into a BOY
just yesterday!
lalalas.
im seriously boredd laa.
nothingg to do.
okayys.
i hope everything now is okaye?
i gtg noww!
byeee.
i love bolster!

je t'aime (:

2005-04-11T18:29:00.000+08:00

I cried and I don't care who knows it.
I cried I ain't too proud to show it.
I cried when you said good bye.
I wonder If you ever think of me.
Or am I just another distant memory.
And after all that we've been through,
It's just so hard to give up on you...

nice right?
koped it from rah's blog.
heheh..

-skips off
harry potter-

2005-03-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

SIMPLY LOVE TODAY PLENTY!!
went to SENTOSA with kandis and zhaolin.
shall just briefly write about the day (:

waited for zhaolin's mrt, took to harbour front. ( i want that hair style! )
bought food, drinks thr then went to get board the bus to SENTOSA
went on the wrong bus in SENTOSA, ended up walking frm SILOSO TO PALAWAN.
ate breakfast then swim to the platform thingy, was having difficulties getting up. ( i must say that the sea water is VERY SALTY! )
swam back then played volleyball and the grnd was super hot so had to run into the water.
took photos cause kandis was leaving, saw the FIRST look-a-like*
met xinjie, jennifer and hazel so shifted everything over the other side of PALAWAN beach, saw SECOND look-a-like*
tanned long enough to be red, swam agn. slimey rocks made me and zhaolin bruised x)
xinjie and others went off, went to get drinks at seven-eleven.
back to the beach, sat thr doing nothing, saw THIRD look-a-like*, couldnt stop laughing cause we really thought it was her.
talked a bit then this guy who was playing soccer sat down near us and started playing with the SPOON found on the grnd, FUNNY!
played VOLLEYBALL agn, this time really play la, then some weird guy joined us.
went to wash up, weird guy's friend asked for our numbers.
went off to get the bus, then zhaolin was laughing to herself all the way, at times she will just grin to herself. LOLS!
met deannah, yixuan, beatrice and yirui+ mat and zhaolin = NOISE :D ( nice knowing deannah and yirui! )
alighted at CP then met sam to go home with me and MALAY FRIEND!
on the way back was so quiet, didnt know what happened, stopped at punggol park and waited with beatrice for her bus.
walked back, reached home and bathed.
ate yum yum salmon dinner and drinking fruit juice! (thanks M & D)
now too tired to upload the photos, shall upload another day.

oh man this colour is so like the adidas volleyball we saw over and over agn!

PRETTY VOLLEYBALL!

anyhows i really enjoyed today.

now ms neo zhaolin still cannot stop laughing la.

i'm tired and i wanna sleep already.

GOOD NIGHTS (:

2005-03-20T13:29:00.000+08:00

wahahahaha!
mat aint blogging,
cos obviously she's too lazy to...
busy studying and studying and studying.
my dear mother can actually study.
thats the miracle of a century.
ok.
fine.
of a millenium.
but still.
there's nothing for me to say here huh?
but anyway.
i'm bored.
so ya.
sitting here.
typing crap.
eating pizza.
and drinking my coke float.
uhuh.
and mat owes me my pizza.
yes.
and i cant remember what i'm supposed to blog about.
therefore...
all you PEOPLE out there reading this,
its just a load of crap.
yeahhhhhh.
:)
happy reading.
i'll be back soon.
to blog more stuff.
ciao.
-blogSHIT-
a.k.a
-weetarded-

2005-03-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

recently i'm just too lazy too blog.
or i shall say i'm too busy,
with ~~NOTHING~~ in particular i guess!
hahs x)

ermm..
monday had history extra lessons,
then we were talking all the while lah.
so funny pls!!
was kind of boring.
then lunch was at LONG JOHNS!
yum yum:)
we were having 'fries fight'!
after that we headed back to sch for amaths lessons.
then went to get paint for CIP.

tuesday went to MINDS at AMK!
was quite fun.
at first was scared of the people there.
but as time passes,
i kinda find them sweet and very innocent.
YES YES!
definately enjoyed painting the room as much as KIM and everyone does.
by the way,
the room is painted YELLOW; the royal colour!
then left for school.
went LONG JOHNS with KIM and XJ.
ate ate ate.
talked and laughed.

TODAY went for heritage tour arnd s'pore!
was very interesting la!!
nice nice speaker.
then was rather sad.
went to kranji war memorial.
i saw this on one of the tombstones;
The lord is my light,
and my salvation.
Whom shall i fear?
and almost cried.
then had fun arnd.
was super duper HIGH today.
maybe cause i'm happier(:
little india I LOVE!
we all got so many bangles.
NICE NICE x)
then bought perfume.
overall was alrights lah.

okies got to go sleep now.
SICK SICK me ):
hope i can be alright by tmrw!!
cannot wait for sentosa!
SENTOSA IS CALLING US!! :D :D

2005-03-13T14:28:00.000+08:00

long since i updated!! (:
had track and field meet on thursday.
YELLOW ROCKS PLEASE!
after that went to watch HITCH!
hah!
friday had cca.
anyway feeling so sick now.
blocked nose and sore throat killing me.
but i still gotta go back to school tmrw.
sigh.

Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cause the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true and no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Ohhh, ohhh....
Crazy... lady..... lately....
Ohhh ohhh.....
Ohh ohhh ohhhhhh
Baby...

2005-03-04T22:07:00.000+08:00

had three papers today
emaths, physics and chemistry.
i'm so gonna flung everything.
and die during PTM.
YES!

anyhow aft the papers had to rush to esplanade to watch hitler!
damn fun please.
4D had to squeeze into mini 30-seater bus.
then the way there was practically dozing off
watched the first play.
funny lak.
uncle was almost sleeping then i had to wake her up.
kept poking my hip and talking.
this shows how the play was.
very interesting yet boring?!
during interval went toilet.
soo much more comfortable!!x)
ate frm mrs fields
went back for next play.

damn nice please!!.
so touching.
its about this WW2 victim who survived the war.
then she start by playing the piano.
telling abt the formation of the world.
nice nice.
must go catch it.
:D

and
my family is abusive and violent.
i love you all.
*flying kisses--

2005-02-27T23:46:00.000+08:00

When an emotional injury takes place.
the body begins a process
as natural as the healing
of a physical wound.

Let the process happen.
Trust that nature
will do the healing.

Know that the pain will pass,
and, when it passes,
you will be stronger,
happier, more sensitive and aware.

`ahhs.
another long weekend of mugging and all.
finally got the time to update.
anyway SATURDAY went for tuition as usual.
when we alight at the bus stop,
this stupid heavy rain had to start,
and we're alr late,
so we just took the possible shelter until there was no more shelter,
then we had to run across the road to get shelter frm that block.
darn funny please.
i was running,
then somehow one side of my slippers was left opp the road.
then i had to run back to get it.
was kind of embarassing la.
then rain was getting heavier.
i suggested to run all the way to tuition bare-footed.
so we ran across the road.
then this car was running towards me.
can't be bothered la.
i just continued running till i get to the opp.
when we reached tuition was alr half an hour late.
then we were totally soaked in rain.
after tuition went to the stadium.
funny please!!
stupid girl, i mean my son.
so freaking lame can?.
really enjoys giggling to herself.
then went home.
started studying, was talking on the phone with sam sam.
HAHAS x)
shall not talk abt the details in HERE.

TODAY IS KIND OF BORING.
MUGGING AGAIN.
i guess i'm really determined this time round.
yah.
good for me yeah.
and shucks la!!
haven even started selling the welfare tickets.
shall hand up later lak.
got to go and iron my uniform.

*I WISH AND HOPE
THAT TMRW WILL BE A GOOD DAY. (:

2005-02-23T20:52:00.000+08:00

it was extreme fun and full of laughters
studying with kandis and zhaolin yest in school
weren't actually studying
was then teaching kandis emaths.
zhaolin was figuring out how to do THAT amaths question.
then slacked around.
made trips to buy food
to the toilet
judebox to play qing tian
the steps near the court to see the sec twos doing some rocket thingy.
was fun.
guess it was the happiest day of the week.

TODAY
after school had cheerleading.
was enjoying it much
although i'm a total dance idiot
everything was OK,
except the many times i have to pretend that i didnt hear anything.
not letting anything affect me.
but still people thinks that i am IGNORING and AVOIDING.
am i that petty?!
whatever it is.
TO YOU ALL,
i don't care what you guys say.
just continue if you all cannot stop.
i'm fine with it,
cause nothing's gonna bring me down.

i've really thought it over.
seems that something is amiss without you.
despite what others say
a thousand million times i told myself that i won't ever bother abt this.
can't help but think of the fun we had.
everything runs through my mind
and it doesn't even help when i tell my friends abt this.
cause most of them dunno what to do either.

ohh
anyway!
I LOVE MY DEARIE PLENTY.
come for cca tmrw ok.

GONE'

2005-02-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

MONDAY BLUES

sigh.
its another week of troubles and more troubles on its way!
so fustrating lak!
anyway today supposed to have a rehearsal but was cancelled last minute.
then HAD to go for amaths remedial.
ah wells.
then didn't listen as usual.
sat with zhaolin.
talked alot.
REALLY ALOT I MEAN!
about all our problems and everything.
it seems like we're going through almost the same kind of problems.
then we got really so 'into' the conversation that mr tan had to like give us that kind of look /:
ohh then a few times we were like hi 5 and ya da ya da.
really got almost everything off my chest.
so relieved mans.
HAHA x)
then this stupid sam had to come and interrupt us.
whatever la.
got to go eat my dinner and
MUG MUG!!!
hope i will lak.
lols.

`off with smiles (:
*i love zhaolin jie plentys and alots.

2005-02-18T20:05:00.000+08:00

feeling so much better nw,
REALLY MUCH BETTER,
even though still feeling like shit.
back is aching,
knocked into the lab table and chair just nw,
just pain all over.
my sister again.
plain irritating!
forever bugging me for the com
hell la.
rahhr!

TODAY is the first time i ate proper recess in the week.
its just weird, very weird
cannot explain how it feels.
no one understands.
if i can continue not eating for another two weeks,
i guess i'll lose weight.
not a bad idea.

i feel like a total idiot ever since this happen.
everyday thinking and thinking.
my brain cells will all be killed one fine day.
but still i haven get the answer in my mind.
yes or no?
hard to decide yeah.

a piece of my heart is with you.
with who?
i dunno
just had this in my mind somehow.
hahs(x

2005-02-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

trying to make this entry short cause sis needs the com in 15 mins,
aiyarh!!
hmms
many things happened recently.
really confused and blur abt practically everything.
i'm just gonna sound like a stupid idiot talking nonsense.
i've cried all my tears dry.
really very sorry and regretted for what i did.
if, if i knew it was real at that point of time
i would have just called you immediately.
although i know that crying can't help improve anything at that time,
but this was all i could do.
just letting everything out
and no one could stop me.
all i heard was words of console.
i felt so guilty
nothing can make me feel better.
anyway
really thank you all of you.
anyone and everyone.
but when i heard what you told me just nw
i was like damn lak.
whatever?!
shall go off now.
take care.
YES YOU!!

2005-02-14T17:41:00.000+08:00

Ohh, ohh
So much for my happy ending
Ohh, ohh
So much for my happy ending
ohh, ohh,ohhhh

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead.
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted,
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away

All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
ohh, ohh,
So much for my happy ending
Ohh ohh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you care
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

ohh ohh ohh ohh
So much for my happy ending
ohh ohh ohh ohh
So much for my happy ending
ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhhh

`darn busy today.
had to mark attendance
went locker in the morning to get a damn freaking pathetic physics textbk!
after school went home with darling sam.
talk till forgot to press the bell.
had to walk home.
laughs!!
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
I LOVE YOU!! :D
~~scars will heal, give them time.~~

2005-02-13T14:43:00.000+08:00

HEY
i never had the intention of breaking this friendship alright.
we used to have a lot of fun together.
now you just think that i feel very great right.
you think i feel very good to see this friendship going down the drain!?
you think i dun care?
you think i'm cold towards you?
you're totally wrong!!
i still care about this friendship,
or else i'll be far away from you,
i might not even talk to you again.
whatever it is,
i really hope that we can still be friends,
like in the past.
but i'm just trying to forget this bit by bit.
like you say its not easy.
so give me some time please.
ahh.
blardy sister nagging at me.

2005-02-11T21:51:00.000+08:00

ahh.
having this running temperature again.
today is yet another long day.
had to endure the torturing problems.
everything had to come to me before CNY.
wth la!?
cant be bothered anymore.
seems that the whole world knows about it.
and i'm like what happened just now huh?
still thinking of what happened.
if all this didnt happen.
i would still be the usual me,
giggling and smiling,
laughing and shouting at the top of my voice.
but nothing can really help now.
had cca
a fun time with the laughters and the new girlfriend of mine (x
alright mat,
can you stop being such an idiot?!
ahhaha.
and i'm also eating alot.
to de-stress i suppose.
sorry to you all.
i left you guys behind.
walked home.
thinking again.
about everything.
then cant help but cry.
feel helpless.
guess only time can heal everything.
argh.
and dun say sorry.
what's done is done.
we cannot pretend nothing is going on.

THANK YOU my ever dearest nanny.
without your listening ear i might as well be gone.
i still remember the message you sent me.
will always keep that silly and lame yet touching message in my head.

THANK YOU my dear lil mei.
guess you're the one who always have to listen to my sorrows and complains and everything.
sorry for neglecting you.
please dun get troubled over my problems.
stay happy.

I LOVE YOU GUYS! (:

2005-02-09T23:21:00.000+08:00

I'M TIRED AND SAD.
I WANNA SLEEP.
I WANNA SHUT MYSELF DOWN.
I'M CRUSHED BY THE OVERWHELMING PROBLEMS
THAT'S PART AND PARCEL OF LIFE. I GOTTA ACCEPT.
BUT PLEASE STOP IT.
I CANNOT TAKE IT ANY LONGER.
WHENEVER I THINK OF IT I'LL CRY.
MAYBE I'M TOO OVERLY EMOTIONAL.
CRYING OVER YOU AND THE THINGS YOU DO. OVER STUPID STUFF.
I SHOULD JUST STUDY HARD AND LEAVE THE SCHOOL.
OR MAYBE I SHOULD JUST BE MYSELF AND FACE IT.
ALLOW PEOPLE TO TALK BEHIND US.
WHAT'S THE PROBLEM?!
JUST TELL US IN THE FACE.
DUN NEED TO TELL ONE AND LEAVE THAT ONE TO ALL THE PROBLEMS.
JUST SO STRESSFUL.
HOW CAN I SURVIVE.

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

2005-02-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened today.
couldn't stop laughing in ss class.
thats very common lak.
had CNY rehearsal after school.
was in the hall lak.
hmm
its weird
just tht people arnd me finally realised that i had some problems.
really wanna thank YOU for praying for me.
you see.
everytime we go for mass or service.
i feel most relaxed.
i'll tend to let go of the worries within me.
and after that i'll be really carefree.
sigh.
i'll have all the faith in me!

TO YOU!
i'm really very sorry.
didnt mean to ignore you.
even if you say that its okay, i still feel bad.
what can i do?

2005-02-05T17:38:00.000+08:00

was late for tuition
woke up at 8.45 when tuition was supposed to be at 9,
daddy drove me there.
tuition was alright
finally understood what was taught at amths lessons in sch.
people arnd me all feeling sad and moody
whatever lak
feel so tired and letargic
yet have a lot of work undone
wonderful huh
and new year is next week
haven got MY SHOES
bet won't even be getting one
sigh sigh.
dun care, dun even wanna bother.
now what's most important is my studies please.
i dun wanna regret for my entire life,
like what i did in primary school
was an immatured stupid girl then
NOT NOW.
however got this TSUNAMI thing to complete.
how fustrating.
but got to get it done
i'm putting so much effort into something not impt.
at least i'm starting to read newspapers
which is a good thing.
after that think i'll go get a bathe and start mugging.
seriously need to study
and get all the facts into my brain
and go for o levels
then forget everything i studied.
its such a waste of time.
i'm aiming for SAJC.
shall go start work now.
love much! (:

2005-02-02T19:49:00.000+08:00

TODAY IS A GREAT DAY.
like real la.
had mental skills course.
this stupid freaking woman.
the sight of her makes my blood boil.
ahh.
'WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM?'
thats her only problem man.
hahas.
laughed real hard.
then yah
after that went home with karin dear girl.
waited for the darn bus for so long.
waited again for 82.
then headed home.
poor sister waiting outside the house for the dumb key.
watched white chicks.
HAH!
talked on the phone.
then nothing much.
and my dear,
its not that i dun want to tag you, but i dun want to.
the reason may be stupid but i'm sorry.
hope you understand.
somehow i feel that we've drifted apart.
dunno why.

Her feelings she hides
Her dreams she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's falling behind
And she can't find her place
She's losing her faith
she's falling from grace
She's all over the place

2005-02-01T19:51:00.000+08:00

i'm seriously gonna die this year.
i cannot even concentrate on my studies please.
can't cope with amaths at all.
totally sucks la.
failed almost every test.
then what can i do.
i'm really sick and tired,
the teachers are pushing us damn hard
in the end we'll all just die together.
how irritating.
ahh.
where did the old me go to?
i want to be the me that always never give up.
but it seems that i can't find any hope to continue.
and i just need time.
i need more time.
but its not possible.
ahh!
haven get a present.
guess i'll have to owe her.
x)

2005-01-31T20:58:00.000+08:00

eh today got house practice huh.
didn't bring attire.
had fun, DEFINATELY!
following the stupid springler or something.
getting wet.
and i'm sniffing now.
cannot stop sneezing.
now today is the last house practice.
LAST!
then what can i do man.
MY mum is nagging at me again la as usual.
ITS LIKE I'VE ONLY BEEN ON THE COM FOR 15MINS PLEASE?
ARSE.
haha.
whatever it is,
shall not let her dampen my mood.
aft house practice stayed with mel sam and anizah
then talked to mr sim till 7 going 8 plus.
went home together with sam and anizah.
talked on the bus as usual.
enjoyed the conversation a lot.
cause its like we face the same problems at home and everything yarh.
so we feel the same towards life.
eww,
ahh.
off to eat dinner.
I LOVE TODAY! (:

2005-01-29T15:01:00.000+08:00

AH HAHAHA!
natasha says that i laugh like that.
uh huh.
yah right.
she is right.

but i'm like i seriously cannot laugh,
for the past few days i look sad and depressed.
like some zombie.
always laughing for no reason.
probably thats the way i relieve stress.
then yesterday someone had to piss me off.
and i fell down.
for the first time in many many months.
still remember the last time i fell was last year october.
then i had a big bruise on my right knee.
this time round i had to fall in front of so many people.
rather embarassing.
i fell flat.
then got bruise on my left elbow and right knee.
I LAUGHED WHEN I SEE BLOOD.
hahas.
its scary huh
but i did.
and now i'm off to get new year clothes.

2005-01-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

TO THAT SOMEONE:

if you are reading this,
i'm very sure you know who you are.
you might not get to read this.
PLEASE stop sticking to me okaye.
i feel kinda irritated by you.
you're pissing me off.
don't think that you're very great.
i really hate this.
and dont't blame me for the things i didn't do.
it's like MY fault right.

ahhs.
whatever it is.
i'm going to pretend nothing happened.
THANKS GOH LITING for that GREAT GIFT.
I'LL KEEP IT FOR LIFE!
I LOVE YOU LARHS.
(:

I just wanna live
Dont really care about the things that they say
Dont really care about what happens to me
I just wanna live
Just wanna live [x6]

2005-01-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

freaking hell.
WHAT'S GOING ON LA?!
it's my last year in SJC.
can't just give me some peace is it?
irritating!
feeling damn SUFFOCATED
i need a space.
so just stop all the nonsense okaye?
pissed off!!
RAWRR
sorry EUNICE.
your cheering up has all been wasted.
i was so much better just now
and this thing has to come to me.
how fustrating!
anyhow i'm gonna ignore all this crap.

Mothers weep, children sleep
So much violence ends in silence
It's a shame there's no one 2 blame
For all the pain that life brings
If u will just take me It might just complete me
And together we can make a stand

2005-01-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

*JUMPS*
finally can update.
too many things happen this few days.
went to compass for dinner on sat night.
on the way home.
saw this LIL BABY on the COLD STORAGE TROLLEY!.
i winked at her.
then she was like started blinking non-stop.
her parents were like
'EH CHARLOTTE STOP BLINKING!'
haha.
she's so cute!!
i taught her actually how to blink.
she's such a fast learner.
unlike me!
then back home.
yesterday went to shop for new year clothes.
i think daddy spent $1000 over larh.
i got a levi's jeans, a skirt and top.
thats all.
aiming for a NEW TRACK SHOE.
hope to get it.
then TODAY IS BLUSHING DAY.
how funny.
but I THINK ITS UNFAIR.
nods!!
haha.
NEVERMIND LARH.
shall let YOU WIN.
OKIES?!
house pratice today.
tiring leh
ran with some people.
YOU KNOW YOU NEED A MOTIVATION TO STRIVE FOR THE BEST.
so yarh.
was like crapping and all.
saying things like you can do it.
yarh.
HAHA!
got to go off to bathe.
byes! (:

off to bathe!!
*skips skips

2005-01-22T18:23:00.000+08:00

AHAHAHAS! (:
TODAY IS A GOOD DAY TO SUNTAN.
WENT DOWN WITH MY LIL SISTER TO SWIM AND GET OURSELVES TANNED!
YEAH!!
I MUST SAY THAT I'M RATHER HAPPY WITH THE RESULT.
HMMPH.
BUT FEELING DAMN WARM NOW.
PERHAPS CAUSE WE STAYED UNDER THE SUN FOR TOO LONG
LIKE 2HOURS YOU SEE.
LOLS.
WELLS.
THANKS MR SUN!
*MY DARLING SAID THAT!
UH-HUH.
I GOT TO RUSH OFF TO COMPLETE MY ASSIGNMENTS.
HAHA!
I'M HAPPY TODAY!!
-SKIPS OFF
(: